Hey you! Happy Monday! I hope you had a great weekend.
So, let's have a real conversation. Have you ever gone through a period in your life where you felt like your eyes were opened, but you couldn't see a thing? Like so much was going on that you needed a solution for, and although you were looking in all the places that you thought were right, you couldn't find one to save your life?
In the fall of 1999, I had begun my second year of pharmacy school. Although many would look at this as a major accomplishment, I felt like a complete failure. I had always done well in school. I certainly never had a problem with passing tests after I had studied. For the first time in my life, I would study for a test, and fail.
I would spend much of my weekends and my afternoons when I got home from class studying. At times, I would stay up all night studying. To no avail, I would still fail many tests. I was blessed to pull off a 75, at times, and ecstatic when I saw anything above an 80!
This may not sound like a big deal to some people. I get that. This was totally foreign to me, and I was not handling it well.
Then, the love of my life, my grandmother, fell really ill and passed away.
I felt like all the walls had come tumbling down around me.
I was in a really dark place. I talked to friends. I went to church. I prayed. I joined study groups. I did all that I knew to do, and could not get any relief.
My eyes were wide shut.